The other reason why my closest relationships are so relatively young is, well… me! Until my last year in High School, I had the popularity of a Lisa Simpson. It was only when I reached my 20 years old that I started pondering on friendships and, in due time, actively shaping my mind and actions accordingly. Partly because of the break with my life in my home town, partly due to my religious curiosity, which lead me to Heathenry and the inclusion of Freyr in my already pagan practices. And that’s when He became one of the main influences in my life: either by learning about or experiencing Him, I came to realize the power and virtue in giving, nurturing, protecting, and self-sacrificing. He didn’t create those things in me, they were already there, mostly thanks to my mother, who taught me to care for others – humans and animals alike – and to take pleasure in the beauty of the natural world. Freyr simply fertilized those things and made them grow. It’s true what Noni once wrote, that He doesn’t turn a cactus into an apple tree; you are what you are. Ingvi just takes what’s already there and, like a gardener, He will prun and nurture it to allow the growth of something vibrant, rich and full of life.
Looking back, I realize that that’s what He did to me. Maybe not like an active teacher, at least not that I was aware of most of the times. He was more of a tangible presence who inspired and supported; He laid His hands over the seeds my mother sowed and made them grow under His light. And though I’m not a finished product – no one really ever is – and I make mistakes, I cannot deny that a lot of what I am today to my closest friends, caring, supporting and protecting them, I owe it to what I learned from Freyr.
*Image: Freyr, ©